The GREATEST Author EVER to EXIST

I never used to think I'd be this kind of person
I never thought that this kind of relentless nature manifested in me
I never thought that life would bring to a point in my life where I am always astonished
I never thought that I would be a self content, self motivated and ambitious being at this age
I never thought that I had it in me to achieve all that I have at this premature era in my life

In the midst of me not knowing, someone was moulding me
In the midst of my stupidity, someone was groaming me
In the midst of my shortcomings, someone was building me
In the midst of my lack of self-belief, someone was cheering me on
In the midst of my inequities, someone was taking the plunge on my behalf

I started planning for that which i had no control over
I started structuring that which i had no tools to assemble
I started fixing that which was never broken
I started breaking that which was meant to build the character in me

But in the midst of it all...
Throughout the lack of understanding
Throughout the stumbling and scratches
Thoughout the developing stages

I learnt that I am just a character in this novel written in this book
I learnt that I am only featured to bring about that which the Author desires
I learnt that the little bit of shine that comes my way is nothing compared to the greatness of the Author.
I learnt that how to SIT BACK, and allow the AUTHOR to work his magic in me.

Hello Building, Well Done Foundation

I am literally six days away from closing a chapter of my life
One that taught me the true essence and roughness of life
I am no longer referred to as a child, i'm an adult in the making
I come and go as i please, no shouting and debating
Old enough to decide my own destiny
From her apron's stings i've been cut loose, what an epiphany
Wow, how fast time goes by
Not so long ago, was sent to the stores, bread and milk I had to buy
Under her roof i had to behave and acknowledge maturity that lies in her
Now i'm right there, the stress and hardships of being an adult, I have to bare

It's so ironic how I have longed and yearnt for this day
No that it's finally here, I don't want to do as I may
What????? I wanna be a kid again?
I wanna be fed and treated like a child that lacks the ability to make her own decisons?
Nah..... I don't think so..... I don't wana go back there..... I wanna be somewhere.......
I wanna be someone...... I wanna do something..... I gotta get elsewhere.... anywhere....

The calender is being marked down.....
Are my days of relentless and fun getting numbered?????
I don't know..... I don't know what to think...... Am I suppose to think????
Well I don't know because i don't know what this is suppose to feel like
I don't know what life expects of me at this pivotal epic moment in my life.......

But one thing is for sure..................
I have lived the past 19 years of my life with pride and determination
From all that I have went through, I have learnt how to me strong, how to love, how to care and how to be me........
I have learnt to define what's inside me based on who i AM.
Therefore, I say with prestige and a joyous heart that I have lived my teenage days with content and happiness
Everything I have absorbed from them have built my character and made mt the best that I can possibly be.
Although there is still room to grow, but the foundation has been laid and I know that from now on....
Life can only get tougher and better for every obstacle defines the next step in this human race....
We never get there but we must not stop THRIVING to BE THERE

SEX.... Let's talk about it.

So my friend and I were talking about sex yesterday, you know mos, just engaging in the dos and donts of sex. Especially with us black people who were never socialized, taught and exposed to this kind of crucial and important matter.

One thing that stood out for me in the discussion that we had was the matter of people being scared and afraid of making mistakes while in the act because we have this perception that there is no room for studpid mistakes, or weird moments in that department. What we also realized as being on of the fundamental problems that hinder unsatisfactory in the exotic field is the fact that couples do not talk about these things. Women are scared to tell their men how they want to be held, how they want to be kissed, what they want their partner to do to them whilst having sex. I mean, what is the point of having sex for the fun of it if you don't get screwed the way you want to be scrwed?

The silence and fear of engaging with our partners about these kind of things is what leads to the lack of hapiness in most marrainges and unsatifying experiences of love making, of sexual intercourse and of intimacy. We should learn that men are not psychic, they can not always guess if you are enjoying what they are doing to you, they can not always tell if they are satisfying you in that department.

I know some of you are probably thinking of excuses of why you keep quiet.... "Oh he is gonna get offended...His ego is gona be shattered". Stop making excuses for you men, don't under estimate the level of understanding that they are capable of having. If you show your man, and break it down in a way that is aimes at building your relationship, making sex more enjoyable for both of you, then talking about it is MOST DEFINATELY worth it.

Men.... I cry out to you to, you also have needs, tell us women what you want us to do to you, where you want us to touch you, what you want us to improve on cause love making is a two-way street....

Come on black women and black men..... Let's break the traditions that have hindered joy and hapiness in our relationships... Let us show good loving, leave a legacy for our children and generations to follow....

A night I felt like an African Queen

03 October 2009Had nothing to wear, my clothes hadn't arrived from back home in Jozi. Already reaching the conclusion that it just wasn't worth it and besides, I was still going to be at next year's ball. But no no no....

Life had more in store for me, now I know what was meant with the saying " 'n Kaffir maak en het a plaan". It's in times like these that I reiterate the words "I'm black and I'm proud" with just that.... pride of being black, pride of being a woman, pride of being a South African and pride of being built like a perfect being that has been created in God's image....

Simatsatsa is what I was referred to, stunning was an adjective juxtaposed to the african work done of my top. Reminiscing on the date that brought joy to my uncle: 07 January 2006, the day he said: "I Do" to his departed wife. I wore that garment with prestige, I wore that garment with respect, as a tribute to lerato la malume waka...

Celebrating her good taste and style in clothes, the kindness of her heart that was so often mistaken for being soft and tender. The harshness of her character that was mistaken for cruelty. Regardless of what her judges said of her on this earth, she is sorely and proudly missed by those who knew her for who she was and everything that she stood for.

Rest in Peace Learato Phuthuma- Pulumo

Le Ndawo

A place of remuneration
A place of self identity
A place of unlimited change
A place of spititual growth
A place of maturity
A place of lonliness
A place of dissatisfaction
A place of finding myself
A place for anyone
A place for you and me
A place to spread your wings a fly
A place of disconfort
A place filled with challenges

This is a place
A place for all to explore....
Le Ndawo!!!!!!!!!!!

Street Vendors

Walking up and down High Street almost everyday reminds me of how much our country is still in need of development and also empowerment for our black nation.

Mothers still sit in the street hoping that tomorrow will be a better day... Praying that people will at least buy something from them.

When will it end? Will it ever end? Is there hope? Who is the answer to this sad scenario and situation in our country???????

The so-called BEE have forgotten to plough back into the communities that fed and looked after them when they were also suffering and being victims of poverty. Time has come for them to give back, provide our fellow South African mothers with skills, knowledge, education that will turn them into good and successfull entrepreneurs.

Come on South Africa its time that we plough back, let us help one another in this journey of trails and tribulations so that we all conquer the obstacles. Let no one stay behind because of not having the means to move ahead. Rather, let it be an individual's decision to remain behind.